From my reading this morning...
"And the miracle is
that when you are no longer placing an impossible demand on it,
becomes not only satisfying,
but also more harmonious, more peaceful."
I sat in quiet for a while and let my spirit absorb this. My mind has all kinds of things to say about it, but I'm not interested in that narrative. I know it all too well.
I'm interested in the part that knows so much of my angst, stress and worry is because of the habit of having expectations. Of wanting things to turn out my way - the way I think things should go.
How limiting this is! How small and contracted my world becomes! I'm grateful to be able to recognize in my body when I am in this fearful and controlling place. (It feels like tension or irritability.) Sometimes it takes a while. Sometimes I notice but want to ignore it. Sometimes it's hard to let go.
It takes practice and self-compassion to surrender and accept what IS versus what I wish or want it to be.